All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly. AND YOU WILL TELL THEM YES.
If I’m the one who makes the decisions for me then why am I
choosing things that make me unhappy? Or
why am I not choosing anything at all and just staying stagnant? I read a quote on twitter yesterday that sums up pretty much..well everything. It reads, "The reason most people fail instead of succeed is that they give up what they want the most for what they want at the moment." I cannot measure how much that rings true to me. Its to the point where I feel like I am two different people. I'm the in the moment me and big picture me all wrapped into one and I'm temporarily losing the battle and its upsetting me. I know that I can turn this all around but right now in this moment this is how I am feeling.
I think that I have my sights so focused on what lay ahead in the next few months that I've checked out of the present and allowed counterproductive behavior to creep back in. I wouldn't even say I'm full of excuses I've just stopped exuding the desire to care. I always wonder where my momentum goes when it goes. And I look at those who always seem to have it in amazement. But perhaps they are ringing true to living a life by making choices based on what they want the most. While I've decided to make choices based on what I want in the moment.
This is not about giving up because that's not in me, I won't ever give up. Just a speed bump that I'm tired of going over on this path that I'm on. I want to focus on striking a fire and keeping it lit for a change. I do believe if I look at things as big picture and work on putting more focus on my daily choices that perhaps I can keep the fire lit and after awhile I won't need the momentum I will be the momentum.
I think that I have my sights so focused on what lay ahead in the next few months that I've checked out of the present and allowed counterproductive behavior to creep back in. I wouldn't even say I'm full of excuses I've just stopped exuding the desire to care. I always wonder where my momentum goes when it goes. And I look at those who always seem to have it in amazement. But perhaps they are ringing true to living a life by making choices based on what they want the most. While I've decided to make choices based on what I want in the moment.
This is not about giving up because that's not in me, I won't ever give up. Just a speed bump that I'm tired of going over on this path that I'm on. I want to focus on striking a fire and keeping it lit for a change. I do believe if I look at things as big picture and work on putting more focus on my daily choices that perhaps I can keep the fire lit and after awhile I won't need the momentum I will be the momentum.
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